@Mike-Cleveland no, I don't believe one can lose their salvation. I just wonder if I ever had it. But I was reading on Godlife.com in their Look to Jesus lesson, that if I've trusted Christ for my salvation, then I'm saved. I just haven't felt His presence lately. Thank you for your kindness. This last summer I almost lost my husband to heart problems. I realize I've been depressed. Hence I'm taking the depression course. It's really helpful to write about it here. Thank you for all you do.