Testimonies of Freedom
Thomas's Testimony: A Heart Transformed by Grace
In the last 30 days, I have undergone the most powerful transformation of my life. It truly feels as if I have been given a new heart and a renewed mind. I’ve never known such joy and peace—every day feels like a gift.
I’ve always considered myself a Christian. Faith was important to me; I prayed, read the Bible, and occasionally went to church. But these past 30 days have shown me something humbling: my actions didn’t reflect the life of a true follower of Christ.
Looking back, I now realize that while my words professed faith, my life didn’t match. I willingly engaged in sin, especially in the areas of pornography and self-gratification. There were times I eagerly turned to those things, even as I called myself a Christian.
Though I prayed and read Scripture, I never truly sought to know God or build a relationship with Him. I only turned to Him when it was convenient—or when I wanted something. In many ways, I treated God like a vending machine: inserting a prayer, hoping for a quick answer.
As I went through this past month and reflected on my former self, I felt deep shame. No one forced me to sin—I chose it. I disrespected the holiness of God by living in rebellion while still claiming His name. And yet, something else overwhelmed me during this reflection: the depth of God’s love.
Despite everything, God never abandoned me. He stayed right beside me—protecting me, helping me, and gently guiding me back to Him. He had every right to turn away, but instead, He showed me grace.
About a year ago, I made my first attempt to quit pornography and self-gratification. But honestly, I wasn’t fully committed. I rationalized my actions: “At least I’m not doing it as much as others.” That mindset kept me trapped. Over time, the problem worsened. What began as once or twice a week soon became three or four times. I realized I was losing control.
Still, I didn’t turn to God. I turned to the world for answers—vows, self-promises, behavior tips. While some of that advice wasn't bad, none of it brought true freedom. I kept relapsing, over and over again, until I finally hit rock bottom. I felt like an addict—powerless, ashamed, and exhausted.
One night, after giving in yet again, I fell to my knees and cried out to God. I told Him I had nothing left, that I had tried everything, and I needed Him to rescue me.
And, just like He always has, God answered.
He led me to Setting Captives Free Purity Bootcamp. Through the lessons, God changed me. My heart and mind were fixed on the cross—on what Jesus truly did for me. As my understanding of His sacrifice deepened, my desire for sin began to fade. That old curiosity and excitement I once had for pornography and self-gratification lost its grip on me.
Do I still face temptation? Yes—but everything is different now. I’m no longer facing it alone. I have the Lord by my side, fighting for me, and He has already granted me victory.
All glory to God for His patience, His mercy, and His power to transform even the most stubborn heart like mine.
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