Lesson 57 Washing, Walking, Warring, Worshipping, Part 2
Testimony
Sonia writes: "Hello. Everyone. My name is Sonia and today I am 27 years old. I was a slave to sexual impurity and self-gratification for almost 16 years. I was exposed to this sin as a child when I saw some movie clips which some of my family members used to watch and some impure magazines that I found while cleaning.
When I became a teen, especially when I had my boyfriend, all these things became so real to me as my boyfriend wanted me to be immoral with him, but I was too afraid.
When I became a believer in Christ at the age of 16, I thought I was free of immoral temptations and struggles, but eventually, the temptation to comfort myself with self-gratification combined with the ease of accessing immoral content through my smartphone overwhelmed me and I fell into sexual sin. I confessed and tried not to do it again. I even became a youth ministry helper in my church, but then I had to get a job.
I was working alone at night, listening to music that made me think immoral thoughts and so I would go on the internet to see immoral content. Soon I became enslaved to it again. I did confession so many times. I fasted. I prayed. I did so many things trying to break free. And for a few days I would be fine and then I would fall again.
But then I started this course at Setting Captives Free and really focused on and prayed through each lesson. I learned so much like it is not about how I do confession or anything else but understanding the love of Christ as displayed on the cross. That is sufficient for me.
I used to sin as I was lacking in love, feeling alone, but after considering the cross of Christ and seeing His love and what he did and reminding myself every day, I overcame. I've been enjoying freedom from sexual sin for about 3 months now. I am thankful that looking to the cross helps me to overcome each day.
There was a time when I used to feel that I would never be free of sexual sin, but I have learned that the power of the Holy Spirit and cross of Christ is so more powerful than sin and my weak flesh. When I was involved in habitual sin I used to feel sick, hopeless and discouraged, but now, praise God, I have a new hope and I'm enjoying a new life of freedom."